I cannot believe it.

[OldBaldy1701E]

16. I don't think I am doing all that well.

I just wander around the house looking at the things I have to do and not doing them because I just cannot find it inside of myself.

I have never had this problem before. Of course, plenty of the problems I have been having in the past few years are new. I am not sure what to do about it because I don't seem to be able to think as well as I used to.

Between this and my husband showing signs of... something... (dementia? Parkinson's?), I am getting pretty worried. I don't know, but his situational awareness is fading fast. He seems oblivious to everything except his phone. We used to make fun of seeing people sitting in a restaurant and both staring at their phones through the entire meal. Now, he is the one doing it.

Chest pains have started again. Oh well, I guess one can hope for a 'final solution'.

(So, we are trying to check out a few new possibilities. We have not yet filled out the application for that one place I mentioned, but I have pretty much lost my appetite for dealing with this shit. I may have cost us our life savings and our identities thanks to that fucked up situation from before, and now my mind and body are trying to fail me once again. I didn't ask for any of this.)