I understand that there have been restrictions about such things. I also understand that, in my house, it is my house. If I cannot control what goes on inside of it, why am I there? It seems silly to me to not have control over your own premises. It comes off like the current debate going on between the game manufacturers and the players, where the makers are saying that despite your purchase, you don't actually own the cartridge. No, smoking restrictions are not unusual. However, these restrictions also include most of the areas around the building as well as most of the park that is one block over. So, I would have nowhere to go within a mile or more. Plus, being in the tundra (Minneapolis... despite the advances, it is still frigid to me in this city) is not conducive to outside activities during almost half of the year. This was never an issue before, as everywhere I have lived did not concern themselves with policing your behavior. Yes, I am aware that smoking can do damage to interiors. The level of smoking that would have to go on is beyond my ability. And, I don't sit around with ten other people 'wasting the day' all the time either. This is medication. Yes, I was a rocker for many decades and I have done much worse. But, cannabis is and was my savior many times in my life and to finally have it recognized as such only to have it removed is just ridiculous.
So, it appears as if we are done with this scammer and are at the bank trying to save our finances and our identities from this error. I doubt that we will be completely able to do so. I failed again. Again. I should have unlocked another level of 'fail' from all the failing I have done in the last few weeks. I pushed for this because it was perfect. I should have remembered. Nothing is perfect for the poor and discarded. Nothing is even manageable.
It is all struggle. All work and no play. That old discussion about how poor people are usually the ones doing the most and dealing with the most. It is true. If I had a lawyer, and a rep out there doing the footwork, if I was wealthy and had connections, we'd find the perfect place with no muss and no fuss. This is by design.
Now it looks like we will have to get the non-smoking one. I will have to stop medicating. This will make the benefits I get from it lessen. That means I will be trying all the other ways and they won't do the job to the extent I need them to. That means another manic episode will be on the way soon after. Then, maybe some time in a ward, or maybe even a jail cell. And all because I cannot just go medicate on the roof or behind the building. Wild eh?
Who knows? Maybe this time I will be irrational enough to actually do something.
(Thanks for the suggestions that will come in, but I cannot afford to address any of this in a way that would actually work, because such real solutions are only available to those who can afford it. I cannot. Yes, buying cannabis is cheaper than fixing the issue. Think about that.)
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