Depression doesn’t make you sad all the time (UK Guardian)

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6. So do I (cooking, not so much!)

but when the grey cloud was upon me, doing anything was extremely difficult. Fortunately I was able to do necessary things, like retaining counsel and filing suit against husb.

My lawyer was the one to point out, during this time, that husb was sociopath, and I was fortunate to be able to internalize this fact. I had an 'AHA' moment, recognizing my condition was because I'd been under his thumb for a few years. Not long after, I stopped taking anti-depression meds. The worst of it has been over for some years, but have lived through lots of stuff since, taken care of family and legal decisions, but still rarely 'feel' real joy; satisfaction is available, tho.