I've had more than one break down in the past few days.

[Neoma]

I want to be strong like I used to be before I started showing signs of Bipolar. I want to be resilient, and have no words hurt me. I want to be the person that doesn't have to depend on others so much. I want to be able to not make mistakes. I want to be a type of martyr for the good of others, but I've never thought myself strong enough for that. The first time I heard what that meant, I decided that was the stupidest thing to do. Opinions change, who knew.

But you know, I think it's wrong to wish to be what I was. I have to accept who I am now, because I'll always be myself. Then maybe without even knowing it, I am who I've always been again. Right?

I can have all the wisdom in the world sometimes, and still feel like crap. Welcome to mental illness.