Feel like crying all the time

[nadine_mn]

10. I used to enjoy crafting and painting

but somehow managed to make that stressful (because I can't bring myself to make art for sake of creating art - it has to be for someone else. So have been a member of group that swaps various art or craft projects which sometimes is wonderful. However some ridiculous sense of 'perfection' has crept in and now its more stressful than relaxing)

I should go outside more - esp now before mosquitoes really come out - but again, I start judging myself - why am I outside on a nice day? I should find a job and contribute more to household...which sets off another depressive cycle of negativity. I am such a Debbie Downer to myself... I know I would be giving anyone else the same advice.

I wish I could find an off switch in my brain. I like your option of researching - that sounds like something I could get behind Maybe take some webinars as well, so I feel like I am doing something while still not brooding.