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[Tobin S.]

15. Hang in there, PM. It can turn around at any time and I'm proof of that.

I became severely mentally ill when I was 20, partly due to life circumstances and partly due to some ill-advised drug use. I have bipolar disorder and experienced psychosis to go along with the terrible mood swings. I lived like that for ten years. I'm not sure how I hung on, but I did and it all changed dramatically in a matter of a couple of days. I just got the right meds at the right dosages. I entered the hospital suicidal and emerged seven days later feeling enlightened and experiencing reality for the first time in a decade.

It's been thirteen years since then. I've had some rough patches, but I have not relapsed and I've maintained my hold on reality. Give the meds a try if you think your digestive system will be able to handle them. They may not work as dramatically at first as they did for me, but they might put you in a place where you can productively work on yourself and make progress.