dunno what to do,scared

[undergroundpanther]

2. I know

Tuesday my mom is meeting with my therapist and I. She wanted my sisters to be there. I said hell no. I will talk to them in ANOTHER session.
I want mom to hear me,LISTEN my therapist can help her DO that.
Besides I hate cage match therapy when it's three against one.I feel bullied in situations like that,so I'm not putting myself in that situation where I would feel like I was walking in a field of landmine triggers in clown shoes.

Where I feel they'd just run me over.Ignore me.

Mom thinks it's like long ago when housing was available,and group homes were safer.Nowadays I'm terrifed of the abuse that happens in these places,under the radar. In this county one group home run by jesus freaks took away the medication the clients needed claiming jesus will heal them.A lot of those clients were in and out of the psych wards.


Both mom and my sisters have no clue how scarce housing IS,and how dangerous things ARE in group homes now.

They are,whether they want to deny it or not, playing Russian roulette with my life and sanity.And I for one do not want to be used that way.