Taking a step back from family

[XanaDUer2]

12. She works in an ivory tower

Has a cleaning lady. More than enough room in one bedroom that I could live in temporarily. I cannot drive to see her 2 hrs away bc I have an unreliable car. She drives to see me, which she apparently resents. However, I've been with her driving hrs out of the way to visit one of her friends. One "friend" she complained about was ignoring her and doing things wo her etc.

We had to drive into the fucking boonies to visit her last year.

It took me a lot of nerve to work up to asking if, should something happen, I could rely on her and the response wasnt what I was expecting. This has been a real slap in the face I'm still reconciling and accepting. She's been rude to me the last few yrs. Really hurt me a few times.

Had she asked me, with my meager assets, i would not have given her a lecture on the underlying causes of homelessness. I was in the gritty middle of it.

I would have said don't worry. We can figure out something. Got your back. I'm here for you. I'm awaiting her not visiting me this year for my birthday. Bracing for that.